I'm starting to hate where i am right now.
I'm starting to regret all the sacrifices i've made.
I hate everything that i've become.

Life is so damn fucking meaningless to me right now.
I feel so empty and miserable every single day even when i'm with you.
Sorry to say this, but it's true.

You're always complaining that you're tired.
When you're with me, your body is there but i feel emptiness. Like the 'you' never exist.
It's only me who make all the moves.

I just miss the old time.
Where we use to chill at changi beach in the afternoon, playing with my hair, talking shit.
We use to go eat at all over singapore even though it's so far away.
You never fail to put a smile on my face.

But now? You're always working your ass out.
We met once a week. And wat did we do? Stayed at ur home.
We never talk on the phone late at night until morning like we used to.
You're always sleeping cause u're tired.
Msgg? Hardly. Cause you're busy working or sleeping.

Do you know how lonely i really feel?

Yes, you accompany me to shop.p
But we hardly ever sit down and talk.

Sometimes i hear u telling me stories about your previous week event. It's so outdated and i only got to know i later?

I really envy those couple who get to take lovely photo of themselves. Me? None.
I envy them cause they get to go picnic and to places where every couple goes to have a romantic date.

Yes, you pour so many luxury on me like no other couple does.

But baby, money doesn't feel or mean anything.
It's only temporary.

Right now, you're sleeping like a pig. Me? I'm typing this blog crying. And you don't care.

I feel so lonely inside. Very lonely.